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Day 52/53 of gratitude 👌🏻

Morning yoga! Over the last week I have been doing more yoga than I have in the last month and it feels amazing! And I’m going to keep going so I can get into a good practice again where my body and mind can really relax and feel calm.

Yoga is also a perfect tool when I’m stressed out. It helps me to focus and breathe 👌🏻 and it is also helping me to love my body!

My eating has changed so drastically, I’m feeling hunger and fullness, but I’m not loosing much weight. Instead I’m starting to enjoy my body, to push it in yoga is just wonderful and I have realized that I don’t need to be skinny to do yoga. My body is a yoga body, no matter the size as long as I keep practicing 💜🙏🏻

The grip my eating disorder had on me for over 20 years is loosing up.. I’m not controlled by food anymore, my mind is free and healing. Food is my friend, my body is my temple. I am slowly learning to love and appreciate my temple and it feels so good. It makes me feel so blessed and grateful, I’m healthy and okay just the way I am 🙏🏻

#gratefulformybody  

Weekly guidance 🔮

 Today I actually used the app with the Archangel Power Tarot cards by Doreen Virtue and Radleigh Valentine to give you guidance. I believe they are just as accurate as the deck. It is just my focus that needs to be turned on.

Two of Raphael equals two of cups in my regular deck. And this card is always about love and partnership to me. But strangely this week I feel this card is more about ourselves and the union we have to make between mind and soul. How we need to love ourselves on the inside and the outside. How we need to find the balance between our yin and yang. Only when we do this are we able to open our  hearts and souls to another persons love. When the bond we create with ourselves are strong and solid, we also show the world that we are secure and happy, but most of all ready to love. And ready to be loved.

Take time this week to nurture yourself and those around you that you truly feel safe and loved by. Don’t wast your energy on old feelings, and old hopes. Remember that we have just entered Mercury direct and that helps us to see things clearer.  In addition we have the powerful energies form Saturdays full moon in Leo, every full moon we shall leave behind the things that are not pushing us forward. Let it go.  Speak your voice, love yourself and look towards your future. What has been can never be changed ❤

Namaste,

Maria xoxoxoxox

From the booklet: 

Two of Raphael
“Two hearts dedicated to creating something wonderful. Kindred spirits. Don’t give up on those you love.”

“Two hearts can create something wonderful! A friendship can grow deeper, or a romance can flourish and bloom. Regardless of the nature of the relationship, time deepens the bond, and a long-term connection based on respect and understanding develops. This is the card of kindred spirits.
Forgiveness heals wounded feelings. Relationships can be reconciled. Now is not the time to give up on those you love. Disagreements between people or groups will come to positive resolutions.

Additional meaning: Flirting, making a commitment, mutual interests, a magnetic connection.”

 

Day 3 of gratitude ~ 2016 🌸

I love my computers… when they work though! I know this is a gratitude post, but after I upgraded my windows on my laptop I have had heaps of issues just getting online or get a picture saved. And when you then want to do something as crazy as updating your WP theme you have to use the amount of self control you have left at the end of the day! Bah!

But then again it is fun, it is fun to change the theme, it is fun to change the look on my blog every now and then. And every time I learn something new! So I am grateful for my computers, my blog, my curiosity, my will to explore and never give up 😉

Thank YOU for still being around, I’m getting back to my blog schedule this upcoming week, so tomorrow is the first weekly guidance of 2016!

I’m excited and eager to kick this year off with everyday life! I love vacations, but when its been awhile I’m really excited to get back to the regularity we have in our everyday life ❤

Thank you 2015 🌟


Last day of 2015. I just read through my post on this day in 2014. And I must say this year should have been hard with my broken arm and all, but it’s been one of the best in many decades!

  
I have picked a card for 2016 too, but I want to just reflect upon last years card and word.

I pulled queen of water and knowledge for 2015. And this year has really been about myself. Healing first on the inside, then my arm. Pushing myself to accept help, to be vulnerable and at peace with my circumstances. And I now know I have support. And I know my kids are safe no matter what should happen to me. But hopefully my health and body only will grow stronger in 2016 🙏🏻

Then there was knowledge. I managed to finish my 2nd year at my university despite my broken arm. And I also started up my 3rd year even though I had no writing skills back in August. But I’m stubborn. And I want my teacher degree. Badly! On top of that I was asked to substitute as a teacher too, and for the first time in a long time I felt secure in my role as a teacher. And it was amazing to get that confirmation yet again! I ended the semester with B+ on my last English assignment and a pass on my oral math exam. Victory!

 So here comes 2016 in some hours, and I’m ready! I’m excited, but also slightly scared 😳😉

This upcoming semester I have three exams!! English, math and pedagogical theory! On top of that I’m writing my bachelor degree 😬 but I want this, so I will manage this too! And when the fall semester starts I’m ready to attend classes I enjoy and can have lots of fun with 👍🏻

The card I picked today from archangel power tarot cards by Doreen Virtue and Radleigh Valentine for myself in 2016 is this: 

And it’s kind of funny how it fits so well with my plans for 2016, but also how it is connected to last years card and word. It only has more books, which makes me super excited 😃

The booklet says this about this card:

  
Love it a lot, and here are my views on this card:

What draw me into the card is all the light surrounding the books. It really tells me how important my studies will be this year. It also tells me that this is another personal year where my focus will lay on growth and healing. The card also have a “young” energy to me, which tells me that my kids also will be influenced to have a great educational year. But also that I will be surrounded with kids, both at home and through work.

The word I feel with this card is challenge. And I will most definitely accept any challenge I get next year. Both personal and professional. I have learned to embrace challenge and they always have some kind of blessing hidden ❤️

I am also going to give myself some challenges:

1. (Same as last year) more fish and veggies, never giving up on this one 😜

2. Go for walks! And do more yoga 🙏🏻

3. Be a good student.

4. Save for a new tattoo that will be taken before 2017 starts!

5. Keep my everyday gratitude challenge going everyday for a full year!

These are my own challenges, and I am already looking forward to push myself 👍🏻👊🏻👌🏻


With that I wish all of you a blessed new year filled with love, happiness and lots of laughter and joy 🌟❤️🌟

Day 109/110 of gratitude!

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Been down in a rut over the last couple of days so all I have wanted was to eat and sleep. I managed to stay away from eating, but I did sleep. Not sure what triggered it all. But I know I am worried about my upcoming exams, stressed about Christmas (finances) and very irritated about my own feelings regarding my ex.

So there has been no blogging and no living, only existing. And as I was sitting here at my computer eating my breakfast and scrolling down on FB this song came on:

And what a song!

It just hit me in my heart, HARD! There is not enough time in this world to stop living! SO today I’m not allowing my mood to drag me down. I’m not going to feel sorry for myself.  And most of all I am not going to let myself get dragged into negative thoughts about my Christmas finances and gifts. What we give this year may not cost a lot, but it comes from the heart ❤

And I hope with all my heart that the kids will appreciate next years great adventures too and hopefully not be upset about not getting any more toys from me, coz really they have enough 😉

So, let’s all keep fighting for a great day, a great month, a great Christmas celebration, a new year! Let us all keep thinking positive thoughts about ourselves and others! Love can change everything ❤

Day 107 of gratitude!

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Today I had a great reality check! Some weeks ago I got papers from an official office that they wanted to look into the amount I get every month in child support. The number is at the lowest already so I got a bit upset and irritated that now they would take it all away. Having a deadbeat dad wasn’t enough, the small monthly forced payment also would have to go!

And this deadbeat dad is someone I miss and probably would have taken back at a low point in my life. Like a week ago.

Until now.

Because today I got the answer to the child support claim. It was his ex who had asked for it, they have three kids together too. And it really didn’t affect me at all. Sadly it only got worse for her, and better for me. I don’t really think that is fair, but since the deadbeat dad only pays minimum the system calculates it like that.

So what was my reality check?

Well in the papers I found information about the deadbeat dad. He is now living with another grown up and he is working full time. And here I was feeling sorry for him thinking he was all alone and maybe even missed his kids and me.

And on top of that the papers state that he is not seeing the three older kids either. So he has FIVE kids he is missing out on. At least I thought when I left him that he would then have less responsibility with us so he could create a great connection with the other three. I guess he failed there too.

So what am I grateful for in all this?

Well, I am grateful I have taken all the right choices over the past 4 years. I am grateful I am no longer hoping that we will get back together. I am grateful I have my kids and that our future is ours and that we are succeeding every single day we wake up happy and ready for a new day.

(the weekly guidance is coming up soon, I am just changing it at bit since I had more to write than what fitted in the little picture I usually use 😉 ) 

Sunday song!

After writing my weekly coffee share this song popped into my mind. I used to listen to Linkin Park a lot before I got kids, but after I got kids I just haven’t had much time alone where I can blast this music. Coz Linkin Park needs to be blasted! So tomorrow when kids are at school I will blast lots and lots of Linkin Park, and I know it will do great things with my mood 😉 Have a good Sunday out there ❤

“Somewhere I Belong”

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I’ll find myself today

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

Sunday song 🎧

 
This week this song has crawled under my skin. The lyrics feels close and yet unfamiliar too. Hope you all have a beautiful Sunday ❤️

Adele “Hello” lyrics

Hello, it’s me, I was wondering
If after all these years you’d like to meet to go over everything

They say that time’s supposed to heal, yeah

But I ain’t done much healing

Hello, can you hear me?

I’m in California dreaming about who we used to be

When we were younger and free

I’ve forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet

There’s such a difference between us

And a million miles

Hello from the other side
I must’ve called a thousand times

To tell you I’m sorry, for everything that I’ve done

But when I call you never seem to be home
Hello from the outside

At least I can say that I’ve tried

To tell you I’m sorry, for breaking your heart

But it don’t matter, it clearly doesn’t tear you apart anymore
Hello, how are you?

It’s so typical of me to talk about myself, I’m sorry

I hope that you’re well

Did you ever make it out of that town where nothing ever happened?
It’s no secret

That the both of us are running out of time
So hello from the other side

I must’ve called a thousand times

To tell you I’m sorry, for everything that I’ve done

But when I call you never seem to be home

Hello from the outside
At least I can say that I’ve tried

To tell you I’m sorry, for breaking your heart

But it don’t matter, it clearly doesn’t tear you apart anymore

Ooh, anymore
Ooh, anymore

Ooh, anymore

Anymore…
Hello from the other side

I must’ve called a thousand times

To tell you I’m sorry, for everything that I’ve done

But when I call you never seem to be home
Hello from the outside

At least I can say that I’ve tried

To tell you I’m sorry, for breaking your heart

But it don’t matter, it clearly doesn’t tear you apart anymore

Source: http://www.directlyrics.com/adele-hello-lyrics.html