I just wrote this blog post before another one called Mindful Monday, and some how it got emerged into one and I lost the one called Monday blues.. So here it is again, or at least something similar to it!
So today everyday life came back after two long weeks in the holiday bubble. And it was rough! Almost like running into a wall.. and I have actually tried that in my teens.. Went well back then, only a broken toe, and today went well too, only feeling drained.. nothing broken!
All of us had a hard time waking up, but we managed to get out of the house in time and with minimal yelling! I don’t understand how “take your shoes on” is better understood yelled than said.. Mystery of life I guess…
I had class again, and this time I was prepared. And it felt good, I just hope I will keep the energy up through all the semester. Math has always been my subject as a kid, so it would be nice to actually get a good grade in the summer.. Next class is on Wednesday. Not Math, so not a great class, but I will manage. The teachers are not my favorites, so I always find it hard to stay with the lecture. I tend to learn this subject better in teacher training than at lectures..
We went to Leon’s 4-year old check up today at the healthcare station. And its was interesting to see how much he has grown! He is now 112 cm and 20 kilo! So I haven’t shrunken his clothes.. he just need two sizes bigger than he has at the moment.. Time for some shopping I guess!
During the check up he had several conversations with the lady about daycare, his playtime etc etc. But she also asked about his dad.. And this is what happened then:
Lady: Do you see your dad?
Leon: Who is dad?
Me: Dad is daddy.
Lady: Do you see your daddy?
Leon: His name is not dad or daddy, it is David and he lives in America.
Yep! That was me. That face was mine for several seconds.
But in all honesty, I have told him that his dads name is David and he is from America. I just didn’t think that this is how he thought about it all. And really I don’t mind the kids thinking that he is in America. Coz how can I explain that he were living just down the road from us for three years and never saw them? How do you explain that to a 4-year old and a 5-year old? I have no idea. But I do understand that I need to address the issue soon. And it’s not like I am hiding him. They have pictures of him they can look at, they just never do. And they hardly ask about him either.. So I think its okay to leave it for now. And I just told the lady with a quiet voice that he is living in Oslo and that he haven’t seen the kids for three years. The conversation ended there. Phew.
Leon’s language skills was way better than I thought, so all my worries about issues are now released! She told me he was acting and scoring perfect on everything and that she didn’t see anything to be worried about during the 1 hour and 15 minutes we were there. I know he have some boundaries issues, but that’s my fault for letting him to close at me all the time. So I am going to work on that, and I do believe it will help him to understand others people’s boundaries and intimacy limits too. It’s nice to have a kiss every now and then, but he doesn’t need to be in my face all the time 😉
In the afternoon he had a birthday party to attend down the street and I had a really good time! It’s the first time since we moved here I actually enjoyed one of these “mandatory-parent-birthday-parties”! I didn’t even feel like a huge odd ball, just a tiny one 😉 And I talked a lot with the adults, instead of following Leon all around.. He actually did a good job at managing by himself without issues or any confrontations! It’s a huge step for him too!
Tonight all three kids went to bed early with a smile and a kiss! Its been a while, since they usually complain about going to bed to early. But I think they all loved to be back at school and daycare. So tomorrow I am having a study free day, so I am just going to lay low on the couch with my cup of tea and book! That will be some bad ass quality time for me!
Lots of love and light to all of you ❤