Frustration!

So I have this urge to write, but there is so little time! There have been many years since life was as busy as it is right now, and some days I wonder if I really like it like this… Some days I don’t even know what the day is or how to get through everything I have to do!

Image result for burning my candle at both endsAnd in some ways I know if I stay on this track I will hit that horrible dark spot again, the one I have stayed clear from for over 2 years now. It’s not like I feel it coming, but I just know that if I keep burning my candle at both ends it will happen. So how does anyone find the balance between excitement and relaxation? The balance between giving and receiving? The balance to live happily in high speed and slowing down when needed?

I definitely don’t have the answers yet! But I know that I have taken some small steps to change my environment to help me find the balance. This last weekend I changed out my yoga space in my bedroom with an office space. Because honestly, I never did yoga in my bedroom after I created a yoga space in the living room. Image result for easelAnd who needs TWO yoga spots in one house LOL πŸ˜‰
So now its22.41 pm and I’m not crawled up in bed yet, I am sitting in my office space and writing. And it feels great to have this time by myself. To do what I love! Because before I got this space I went to bed when the kids did around 9 pm and watched movies and just slept. My office space was then in the hallway and I made to much noise for the kids to sleep and I felt uninspired sitting alone in a long dark hallway. Now I have my stuff all around me and I can light candles and incense sticks and just enjoy writing, or even paint if I feel like it πŸ™‚ All I want from Santa now is an easel, that would make my personal space even more fun!!

So hopefully I will be around more, and I am also looking forward to writing more about my inner journey over the last 6 months. It has been a lot of changes, and I feel ready to share some of it soon ❀ And hopefully I will be able to start sharing on the Survivers blog too soon ❀

See you around soon!

 

 

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Break πŸ˜₯

I need a blog break while doing my teacher practice πŸ˜“ my goal this year was to post a gratitude post everyday for 365 days. But I’m exhausted !! And the sadness of not doing my own challenge is bringing me down, so I need to let go of that burden. 

But I will pop by when I have time and try to share some gratitude, coffee and songs every now and then. This spring will be busy with my long teacher practice, bachelor assignment and 4 !! Exams! 

But I’m not closing down, I’m just slowing down for a short time 😘❀️

Day 68 of gratitude πŸŽ‚

  
Homemade gifts, drawings, hugs, songs and comments on Facebook is a perfect way for me to celebrate my 39th birthday ❀️🎈☺️ looking forward to another year of growth and change πŸ‘ŒπŸ» life feels pretty good today, I even had sunshine and blue skies, hopefully a sign for good health and happiness over the next twelve months, fingers crossed πŸŽ‚πŸŽˆπŸŽ

Day 65,66 AND 67 of gratitude πŸ˜œ

The days are literally flying for me!!!πŸƒπŸ»πŸ’¨ 

But life is good! Handball on Saturday was so much fun!! Skiing yesterday and teaching today too! 

On top of all those good family moments and teaching I treated myself a dinner and theater show with my coworkers tonight πŸ‘πŸ» my own little celebration of my birthday tomorrow πŸ˜‰ it was amazing and so nice to just be an adult and do something for myself πŸ‘ŒπŸ» 

#39isjustanumber 🎁

  

Day 63 of gratitude β˜ΊοΈ

Keeping it very simple tonight. Had a long day with group therapy and individual therapy. On top I wrote over 3000 theory words on my bachelor assignment πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ˜ƒ so good to have finally gotten words out of my mind and down on paper! In addition planned English classes for tomorrow and next week! Also helped Leon get through a mini breakdown. So keeping it simple and just feeling grateful for life and how it moves forward when I at least expect it too πŸ™πŸ» 

  
 

Day 62 of gratitude βœ‚️

Crafting! My girls have been crafting a lot lately. Lara has made her own knitted handbags and Lily made curtains for a cardboard house today. They love creating and next week Lara is going to learn how to use a sewing machine πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ» 

I’m happy we have people around us that inspire them, because it is not me πŸ˜‚ 

   
 

Day 61 of gratitude πŸŒΈ

Today I’m grateful for a new month!! It’s spring month!!!!!! So excited even though the weather predictions is snow πŸ˜œπŸ™ˆ I don’t care this is spring, and my birthday month 🎈 

And we walked to daycare this morning at 6.45 am (!), but now we have the car πŸ™ŒπŸ» but as soon as I have a day off we will walk again because it was a really nice way to start the day πŸ‘ŒπŸ»

#everydaygratitude2016 

  

Day 60 of gratitude πŸš—

Coworkers who generously gives me a ride when my car is in for a check up! 

One day turned into two days 😳 so tomorrow me and the kids are walking to daycare and school at 6.45 am 😝 it is lucky for me that the girls can stay with their great grandma until school starts and I get a ride with my coworker πŸ‘πŸ»πŸš—

And my English classes today went smoothly πŸ™ŒπŸ»πŸ™ŒπŸ»πŸ™ŒπŸ» it was amazing to use what I had created and feel that great ownership to what I taught today πŸ’«

  

Weekly guidance πŸ“Ώ

  
This week two cards jumped out when I asked for guidance for all of us πŸ™πŸ»

And the message I get with these two cards is that it is safe this week to feel powerful and proud. You should not hide in the shadows, you should follow your inner light and grab every opportunity you get because it will lead you to victory. Trust in your own worth, your own skills, trust that there are an energy out there protecting you and guiding you to achieve the best in life. Also remember that the best is not always gold and glitter, sometimes what is best for us hide in plain sight πŸ’• feel brave enough to see it and feel the empowerment it gives you. Be in the here and now, feel victorious about being here. Sometimes all we need is to breathe and let go of the future and trust that it is safe and joyfully awaiting you. Crawing for a better tomorrow takes away the joy of today πŸ™πŸ»πŸ˜˜

This week I used Direen Virtue’s deck “Archangel Oracle cards”.